Dirty dancing on tables

I’m a product of my many mistakes misguided I thought actions were actions consequences over rated accountability not an options anyways there’s an imaginary line between right and wrong I’m only concern with keeping up my disguises cuz if I let it slip for a moment then they’ll know my walk is crocket.
This smile seals tears in army formation ready to attack my calm composure and reveal that this is make believe.
Believe your stares did not bruise
I love you whispered through a drunkard’s breath has not left me confused.
You see uncle used to touch me he told me my star is the brightest so I conclude love hurts and pain was his ultimate giving.
You see this smile has fooled many, it seals emotions unheard of, this is a dilemma not known to masses this smile won’t speak verses of how my being longs for salvation that this smile is calling to you reaching to you screaming at you to save me from me.
My many cries have fallen on hearing ears and seeing eyes yet the message you missed it.
When I was dancing on tables
Getting undressed was so easy
I shouted the loudest acquiring labels as souvenirs
Reputation arriving first before I could let it slip I’m hiding behind a mask imprisoned by my own mind
DID YOU HEAR ME CRY?
Reality goes beyond conditions
I called out to you longing to be figured out as I cut these skirts shorter
Salvation desperately needed
Validation that healing is coming
Solution was what my heart was seeking
Recreation of the self-dilapidating
Elevation of the mind transforming
This is I naked and calling cuz I’m exhausted from all these games I’ve playing
Reaching to you in post scripts and please note
DID YOU HEAR ME  CRY?